Vanessa the Vagabond!

I came across this term the other day, and thought that pretty much described me at the moment. A Vagabond is "rootless: wandering aimlessly without ties to a place or community; "led a vagabond life"; "a rootless wanderer" (thanks google!)

And that's what I kind of feel like at the moment, except i'm definitely not wandering around aimlessly. I'm following my God, who calls me to follow him with reckless abandonment. Who asks me to pick up my cross and follow him. And that's what i'm doing, and I'm going to continue to do. I'm going to seek out God, and follow his guidance. I'm not going to lean on my own understanding, but in all my ways acknowledge him, knowing he will make my paths straight.

What I love about my life at the moment, is the independence I have to experience what I want to without many restrictions. I'm young (although, at 21 I am starting to feel kind old at 'youth' things.. lol), and fiercely independent. I took the opportunity to move out of home and go to uni, and now i've moved to Melbourne. I'm now contemplating and praying about what i'm going to do next year. I have so many options! Sometimes i'm so overwhelmed by the amount of options I have, but at the same time, I'm excited! It's possibly one of the only times in my life i'm going to have such a vast array of opportunities on my platter. Life is going to progress, and where I am and what position i'm in is going to change, and things are going to limit what I can do, I'll have other things and people to factor into my plans. But for now, I can use this season in my life that God has given me to just embrace my independence.

So come 2009, who knows where i'll be! I could be down in Melbourne, following an opportunity that may come down my way down there (whilst finishing my social work degree, don't worry i am going to finish! lol).. I could be in Newcastle, finishing my degree there... I could move back to Sydney, where i grew up, or I could go overseas!, or even still, I could end up at SAOTC! (i've abbreviated that for a reason! lol) Who Knows!

What I do know is that i'm going to seek God's guidance on it all, and trust him on whatever path he may lead me down. I'm excited, and can't wait to see how God is going to change me, and use me to bring glory to his name, and see souls saved. Hallejuah!

All of this talk about the future reminds me of this songster piece i remember from being a songsterooni back in the days!

If crosses come, if it should cost me dearly,
To be the servant of my Servant Lord,
If darkness falls around the path of duty.
And men despise the Saviour I've adored.

I'll not turn back, whatever it may cost,
I'm called to live, to love and save the lost,
I'll not turn back, whatever it may cost,.
I'm called to live, to love and save the lost.

If doors should close then other doors will open,.
The word of God can never be contained.
His love cannot be finally frustrated,
By narrow minds or prison bars restrained.

If tears should fall, if I am called to suffer,
If all I love men should deface, defame,
I'll not deny the One that I have followed,
Nor be ashamed to bear my Master's name

I'll not turn back, whatever it may cost,
I'm called to live, to love and save the lost,
I'll not turn back, whatever it may cost,.
I'm called to live, to love and save the lost.
Gowans & Larsson

For Him Alone
Ness :-)