walking by faith...

Hello from Newcastle!

That's right, I'm back here in Newcastle, after finishing up in Melbourne on the 23rd! The last week or so has been really interesting, and to be honest, really hard! Much harder than i anticipated.

The last week i've been considering how i'm going to take what i've learnt in 2008, and apply it to my own 'world' up here in Newcastle. How do I not change back to the nowhere near as passionate person I was before 2008? How do I deal with the tension between the life I was living, and the comforts I can now 'enjoy'? How do I stay encouraged and onfire when I'm no longer closely surrounded by a group of people who are on the same wavelength, with the same passion and committment?

The answers to all of the above are "i'm not sure!", but what I do know is with God all things are possible. I know He has led me back here to Newcastle for a reason, but until I figure out that reason (other than finishing uni of course!), I have to walk by faith, even when I cannot see. I have to empty myself of all of my desires and seek God, knowing that He has a good and perfect (but perhaps not easy) will for my life...

I was sitting in the car this morning, and this song by Jeremy Camp came on. Its simple, but Its the prayer of my heart at the moment. More of Him and less of me.

Holy Fire, burn away. My desire for anything
That is not of you, and is of me
I want more of you, and less of me

Empty Me, Empty Me,

Well won't you empty me, well won't you empty me now
I want more, I want more, I want more of you, Jesus.
I want more, I want more.

Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus.

Amen

For Him Alone
Ness